Paranoia and fear, that is what we, lone human beings are reduced to…
Somehow these issues are even more disparate here, even as far as unemployment in time of need goes…there basically isn’t any. Even if you do get it, it is a ridiculously low amount that only lasts you 6 months and to get by you are basically forced into a black/grey market economy just to pay the friggin rent and a package of ramen noodles, just to have something in your stomach…
Not to mention the absolutely ridiculous labor reps and their equipment, I almost lost my unemployment when some documentation I sent could not be opened on their comp…and it was just a simple text file…wtf…
And we are a country that slashes the highest amount from people’s salaries for so called “social” fees, and then get the least back out of anyone in the EU???
But more below the belt is, as you hint, this total switch into selfishness it brings onto people…lose your job and people not only divorce themselves from you, they stay away as though you are bringing the black plague onto them. And I won’t even start to comment on any family relations…
I’m sort of in a mind frame, ok, work, no notion of career, just gather up some reserves so you can last for a year or two if next time, or figure out a place on this silly planet that isn’t all that fucked up and move there…..the problem is, does such a place exist??
I’m ranting a bit, I know, but it is just so bewildering….
I still have not adapted to things the way they are. What bothers me is how paranoid I have become after getting fired and rehired. It seems like everything is about keeping the job and I really have not gotten a handle on my emotions. I never took the job thing all that seriously before, but know I find myself worrying way to much about this shit. I’ve had this CIA job now for 3 years, but I still feel like I’m just hanging on. I figured it might be helpful for you to know how I have delt with this and hopefully you will not have as bad a time as I have. I think you are like me in that you probably never paranoia about work. I found it has been something of a shock. But lately, I’ve been doing better at thinking about other things other than work, so maybe I’m finally getting a grip on this. In the end it is good that you have gotten another job, but beware of the effects all this will have on you. I was totally not prepared and it took a while to even figure out what was troubling me. It is like being forced to be a different person. You want to fight it, but it’s almost impossible to not worry. Anyway, I hope you now have full benefits and such. That alone is valuable.
I hear that. Relief, indeed. But with the waning of ever present
nervousness that has become so everyday, feel just how ragged both
mentally and physically I am.
Seriously, thought I would end up on the street or lose it and get
incarnated in a loony bin were fucking real….
society is just so fucked up now.